There, I said it. One of my deepest fears laid out for the whole world to see: I’m not really who you think I am.
Mostly — like 99% of the time — I’m actually pretty confident. I know that I know my stuff.
But every now and then something happens to trigger the ugly and critical self-accusations: You really have no idea what the hell you’re doing, do you? The only reason they signed up for your class is because they’re your friend. There are other people WAY more qualified to do this work than you…
I’ve noticed that usually these thoughts come up during discussions around money. And not just for me.
Many of us use our bank balances as evidence of our “authority.” (See this post by Tad Hargrave for more on this angle.)
When I’m wallowing in these thoughts, they sound like If I’m such a marketing genius, why aren’t I making multiple six-figures?
For you, it might sound like Surely nobody is going to pay me (whatever the going rate is for what you do). I don’t have the credentials.
If I’m honest, I know exactly why I’m not making 6-figures a year: Because I’ve made a conscious choice to build my business in a certain way and at a certain pace (aka Slow Marketing).
How Many Initials Do I Need to Feel Like an Authority?
When I started my first business back in ’06 (Social Good Marketing), the thought that others would figure out I wasn’t qualified to be a “marketing expert” plagued me much more often and in a different way than it does now. So much so, that I began pursuing the idea of getting my MBA.
After all, my own father had FOUR degrees. (BS, Masters of Science, Masters of Teaching and finally a DDS.)
In our family, we revere academia.
So, I truly believed that a few more initials after my name would finally give me the credibility I so obviously “needed.”
Thankfully, a coach helped me explore this thought a little deeper. In the process, I began to see and understand that I really did have the credentials to do the work I was doing. That I’d accomplished quite a bit, actually.
And that I didn’t need to spend another $50K to convince myself (or the world) that I was an authority in my profession.
For awhile, I was able to put those fears to rest and go on my merry way.
But recently, the topic of feeling like a fraud came up in a Word Carnival discussion. So here we are.
At first, I was like — Yes! I mean, No! I mean, obviously I need to write about this because revealing my own feelings of impostordom scares the bajeezus out of me.
It’s Called The Impostor Syndrome
I did some googling and apparently the name for this is Impostor Syndrome. In fact, if you search the phrase “feel like a business impostor,” Google returns about 2,730,000 results.
Some experts believe it affects women slightly more than men (kind of like our other nemesis, Perfectionism). And lots of successful folks have admitted publicly that they’re scared that at any moment, people will find out they don’t know what the heck they’re doing.
Knowing this made me feel better. But I didn’t see any A-list bloggers admitting this kind of thing and wondered if they’d ever felt like this, too.
After all, what we do here is different from Tina Fey being funny or Meryl Streep acting, right? We’re “experts” advising clients on how to be successful. Which means we’ve got a lot to live up to.
So I reached out to a few of my favorite folks to see if they’d share their thoughts on the topic.
Maybe you recognize some of these names?
Carol Tice of Make a Living Writing
OMG, I suffered from this for years. As a college dropout, I blundered into writing for the Los Angeles Times real estate section as a freelancer about 9 months after I discovered the world of article writing. I was completely freaked and felt so unqualified. And the feeling really took probably 15 years to go away. I kept waiting for someone to tap me on the shoulder and tell me the Universal Editor Network had found me out and send out the word to officially ban me from making a living as a writer.
Even after I worked 2 staff writer jobs for 12 years, winning my final publication a prestigious national business-writing award they’d never gotten in 25 years of publishing, I kept expecting to get busted. It wasn’t until the past few years that I finally started to relax.
Now I try my best to help other writers get over this syndrome faster than I did. In the world of writing, it’s on the page or it isn’t. Nobody cares if you learned it under a freeway overpass or at Columbia.
Danny Iny of Firepole Marketing:
Remember, I quit school when I was 15 to start my first business, so for the majority of my career, I was always the youngest guy in the room, and that brings with it a lot of baggage; why would they take me seriously? When will they realize that I don’t know everything I should? I actually remember when I was 16, working on a telecommunications start-up, being in a meeting with half a dozen executives of a cell phone company. The secretary walked in, and asked everyone if they wanted coffee, and turned to me, and asked if I’d like some chocolate milk. That took me a long time to get over.
For me, the baggage came from age, and for other people, it might be something else — maybe it’s their background, or their (lack of) credentials, or something else. What it all really boils down to is the fact that being an entrepreneur, and an innovator, means that (by definition) you’re doing something that hasn’t been done before — which means that there’s a certain amount of “figuring it out as you go.” With enough experience as an entrepreneur, you get comfortable with a certain amount of uncertainty.
But honestly, it takes a while — and sometimes I’m still not sure that I’m there yet. In the meantime, just keep on trucking — ultimately, your impact, contribution, and results aren’t a reflection of your confidence, but rather of your actions. So act, and let the confidence catch up with the reality that you create.
Pace Smith of Pace & Kyeli:
I’ve met a lot of small business owners, and I’ve met a few people that small business owners look up to as role models. And every single one has suffered from Impostor Syndrome. When I feel like an impostor, I remind myself that my heroes also feel like they don’t know what they’re doing, and that they’re afraid someone might figure it out any day.
Jennifer Louden of Savor & Serve:
I used to feel like such a fraud! My first book was published when I was 27 and I was often the youngest person in the room when teaching or speaking. It was so exhausting and cost me so much. Nowadays I don’t feel like a fraud too often because I declare who I am, I declare what I know, I declare what I offer. The big shift for me was to unhook from being an expert and to stand firmly in my life experiences.
I forget, of course, and then I get that creepy fraudy exhausted feeling, which I use as a signal to ask myself, “Who do I think I need to be here?” I basically try to catch the story that I’m supposed to be different than I am. Feeling like a fraud means I’m separated from myself & my own heart, so I can use it as a way to reconnect. Most days.
And guess what? Feeling like a fraud isn’t always a bad thing. Sometimes these feelings come up as a normal part of the reality check we all need. Like this example from Pat Flynn:
Pat Flynn of Smart Passive Income:
I received an email once from a reader who confessed that he was incredibly frustrated because he never seemed to be making any progress in his business. After a few exchanges and digging deeper, I learned that because he was such a motivated entrepreneur, he had started 4 or 5 completely different projects at the same time, and as a result of his “shiny object syndrome,” he would never complete anything to a point where he would begin to see results.
My advice was to focus on one thing at a time, and I shared that those other projects can be put aside for later, but it’s crucial to focus and complete one project at a time. I told him that even a project that’s 95% complete is still 0% complete to the eyes of those who will eventually consume it or benefit from it. After he replied with “Thank you for that Pat! That’s exactly what I needed to hear!”
I stepped back and looked at what I was doing in my own business. I realized that I had even more projects than he did all running at the same time, all incomplete just like his and it was at that point I felt like an impostor — a hypocrite who was teaching people what I wasn’t actually practicing myself, and I didn’t like it.
It was at that point that I decided to follow my own advice, rank my projects based on time needed to complete and priority, and I began to put more energy and focus into one project at a time until completion, or at least until I reached a stopping point where it was okay to move onto something else. Sometimes, we have to listen to what we tell others to do and really follow our own advice – especially if you want to be a leader.
Here’s more good news from The Brazen Life:
“Feelings of faking it are usually associated with intelligence, diligence and, paradoxically, competence. Slackers, blusterers and the genuinely incompetent tend not to stress about feeling like fakers.”
How I Deal With Feeling Like a Fraud
During those moments when I backslide into Impostor Syndrome, I remind myself (often!) that I’ve made conscious choices to take the Slow Marketing path. To focus on going deep with my clients vs. going wide. Then I spend some time taking an honest look at what I’m doing — am I following my own best advice? Is there something I can honestly do better?
If not, then I revisit my “Kudos” file — it’s the place on my laptop where I store all the good bits folks have shared with me about how I’ve helped them. The formal testimonials and the off-the-cuff tweets. Thankfully, I don’t have to look at this file very often. (I think it’s been over a year since the last time.)
But the most important thing I do is help other people see and understand just how truly talented and knowledgeable they are — without blowing smoke up their backsides.
When I see someone do something fabulous, I tell them. When I read an email that touches me, I let them know. The more often I pass on the good juju, the more I’m able to see that kind of thing in myself. (I highly recommend the practice!)
And it’s important that we ALL work at recognizing and celebrating when things go well.
Tanya Geisler gave a TED talk on just this subject. And on her blog, she wrote about the process of preparing for her time on stage:
I’m tackling a topic that lives dead smack in the middle of my heart: how the Impostor Complex keeps people from their dreams. And to me, this is unacceptable, so I’m taking it down.
At the highest level, I know the talk will be grand: smart stuff, with a whole process, charming stories ‘n everything.
Annnnnnnnnd naturally, MY Impostor Complex is having a field day reminding me how woefully incompetent I am. How there are people far more qualified to speak to the topic than me. How I’m not funny, or smart, or captivating, or…
I’ve been struggling with the words. Procrastinating. Needling the nuances, incanting, sweating, fretting and tearing my hair out. Because it really, really matters to me.
Hell on the ego, but heavenly fertile ground for developing honest and authentic content.
The more clever I notice myself wanting to become, or smarter, or funnier, or deeper or more poetic, the more I feel disconnected from the truth that MUST imbue my words. Which disconnects me from the point. Which will disconnect the audience from me.(My emphasis added.)
Also not acceptable. Not for the work I need to do.
And not acceptable for the work you need to do either.
Here’s Tanya’s take on the topic. Please watch and then share your experiences with the rest of us in a comment below.
This post is part of the July Word Carnival. You can read the rest of the fabulous writing on this month’s topic here (goes live July 31st).